Saturday, January 3, 2009

That dreaded word, 'Coincidence'

There are events in this life that we as humans refer to as coincidence: two friends finding out that they share an important date; lovers calling each other at the same moment; a mother and a son making the same turn in their home and walking into each other. Even more alarming are the days when the entire world seems intent on making you aware of some little-known fact or some miscellaneous piece of trivia, or perhaps even the days when events all seem to come together to create a sense of euphoria or to tear you down and crush your Soul all at once. We call these things coincidence because, for all intents and purposes, that is all that we could understand them to be. If there is a greater power in the Cosmos, then we must be assured that It will look over the flows of Fate and Time, while understanding and accepting that the daily activities of a innumerable species such as our own are fully unplanned and destined to repeat and coalesce in coincidental ways. After all, there are only so many faces for the cast of our lives; eventually, they will overlap.

Personally, I don't believe in coincidence. I think that it's idiotic to assume that there's any form of a consciousness- call it God, call it Allah, call it Tsel- that has the power to maintain the structure and reason of the Cosmos, while being incapable of overseeing the flow of our lives in some form or another. Because of that, I've lived my life fully unaware of the concept of coincidence; I've followed up on every possible lead and I've found myself in interesting positions which I can't for a moment claim were in any way pointless. Because of my disbelief in coincidence, I have met great people, made astounding friends, and picked my way through the unrealistic circumstances of what life I've had.

At the moment, I'm staring down Fate once more. I'm tempting 'coincidence' and I'm finding myself speechless; cogs are turning because I refuse to accept the reality that I've been handed. I can't say much, mainly because it's impossible to put the sensation into words. It's as if the entire Cosmos is realigning itself, as if time and space are becoming even more fragile and reality is warping; it's undescribable, both painful and pleasureable, the sweetest of sorrows and the most chaotic of melodies...
Suffice it to say, I will know where I belong in short order. I will have a reason to be there, and I will have a reason to stay. I have the utmost faith in that.

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